We’ve gone through a lot this year…first the diagnosis…then came the theraphies…now, we’re finally off to school. A wonderful school where she can learn…interact…learn the rules of life. So one day, she’ll know…and realize on her own, just how special…wonderful she is.
I love you with all of my heart my darling little girl. Your dad, brother and I are so proud of the things you have accomplished…we always knew you weren’t so beautiful for nothing. Spread that light within you…
You are a joy to behold…
You and your brother are the loves of my life…
My one true devotion…
SJFIFNNHSPSFJGQWYUUTPTPYJNHMHPPASKSKSKUJTGUGI on the new HP Trailer!!! Yeah so I’m not immune to Potter mania. I am so beside myself with utter glee especially since opening day is on…MY BIRTHDAY **does the cabbage patch**.
I remember crying my ass off when I read this book; just literally in pieces! And then got a funny feeling in my stomach when Harry said the great wizards were just like them now (cut to a montage of all the wizard greats like Lupin, Dumbledore and…ZOMG Sirius Black!!!) HA-HA-HA. People thought I had gone nutters. First of all, that shipped had sailed…uh, years ago!
I have goosebumps…GOOSEBUMPS! QTUHGBNTUTHDLFPQIEDSSKSTUTPSKFDUQ!!! **is ded**
Today I’m meeting with the SAUSD, my Regional CenterCoordinator, the Austism Dept. Coordinator of the RCOC, Maia’s ABA Therapist and the Autism Spectrum Therapy Supervisors. Crossing fingers that everything goes smoothly and that an excellent plan for Maia’s theraphy be outlined and met by all. I’m supposed to ask that she continue her one-on-one ABA theraphy coupled with OT and PT. I am really hoping and praying that I don’t appear at all shaken and freeze in front on these people. I just want what’s best for my Maia bird.
What I am about to declare is a flashing sign that indicates that I so need a life….because if I don’t, I’ll end up resembling a character from one of the fandoms I already worship. And I gotta be me, right? Unique ‘lil ‘ol me…and not some robot, zombie fish that somehow managed to crawl out of Hades’ anus.
Ladies and Gentlegerms, I present to you, my first fanmix…and not just any fanmix, A frick’n House/Cameron fanmix!!!
Playlist and Coverart are all located @ my journal
Spiritual teachers have always pointed to the heart as the seat of consciousness, and recently Western science has found evidence to support this realization. It turns out that the heart has its own central nervous system and is not simply under the rule of the brain as formerly believed. Anyone who has taken the time to explore the heart knows this and, more important, has realized that the heart is the source of our connection to a consciousness greater than the ego. Approaching life with an open heart means that we have opened the door to this greater consciousness, taking up residence alongside it in the seat of our soul. Fortunately, at this time there is a lot of support for this shift energetically as well as practically. To some degree, approaching life with an open heart is as simple as shifting your attention onto your heart.
Eventually you will be able do this any time, any place, but at first it may help to try it in a quiet place where you won’t be disturbed. Simply sit with your eyes closed and draw your breath into your heart. As your breath expands your chest cavity, your heart expands and opens. You may feel tenderness or sadness in your heart, and you may also feel relief. Any emotions that arise can be effectively witnessed and healed through the meditation process, which benefits both your physical heart and your energetic heart. The more you practice, the more you will find your heart opening to your own presence and to all the situations your life brings.
When we open our hearts, they may feel tender and vulnerable, which simply means that they need our loving attention as we cleanse and heal them of past hurts and blockages. This process asks us to practice some of the heart’s greatest lessons-patience, compassion, and unconditional love. On the other hand, we may take up residence as effortlessly as a bird returns to its nest. Either way, approaching life with an open heart simply means returning to our true home.
What better way to celebrate my 350th blog post than to show off my icon creations of Jennifer Morrison; otherwise known as the brilliant Dr. Cameron on Fox’ House. What I can I say, she has been of late, my muse.
I’d also like to say that for anyone out there who has been discouraged with the horrible events that have happened yesterday; one tiny way of brightening up your space is to expose yourself to anything yellow, like: daffodils. Researches have pointed out that small amounts of yellow tinted flowers bring much hope and warmth as sure as the sunshine itself…we all need to hang on to that. To keep on hoping for ourselves and for the world that we live in. And sharing even just a stem to someone who needs encouragement will sure bring some gladness. Move on…keep living a positive outlook in life to the best or your abilities…and share your found optimism with the people around you. Let us stir up the same effect the flowers of spring imbue within us to others…that even when we feel we have reached the winter of our existence, there is rebirth…a chance of a new beginning. I hold postive thoughts for each and everyone of you. I hope and pray we all get through the hard times…Namaste:-)
Update:
took the icons down, but you can still snag em if you want em at my journal
I have been busy exhausting all my creative effort into making fanart over at LJ…but I also wanted to share with you how it turned out. So I’m cross-posting it over here.
I may be taking too much time staring at my blog colors… that’s because I came up with a Cameron/JMo wallpaper and banner that looks just like this.
I purposely left my banner without text. It’s for anyone to use as a base. The last one I made seemed to be a hit. If you stare hard enough at the wallpaper, the color of Cameron/JMo’s eyes come out. But stare hard…he-he-he
Credit goes to “Cosmo_Mouse” for the striped pattern I used for my textless banner. **bows down to you**
Rules: hotlinking might NOT be a good idea
Credit is NOT necessary.
Comments are welcome. In fact, I sponge off them.
Am not one to consistently blogpost lyrics or music videos (though I think I may start doing that now); BUT I thought I’d share this video of the uber talented, Imogen Heap. Her voice has the capacity to tug on your heartstrings…it has caused me to cry sometimes (because it’s not exactly a happy song)…BUT it helps me release and let go the pain I have been holding on to. I don’t know why I tend to do that…but in someways music and not just meditation helps me release unwanted stress. I just go “fuck it” and let it all out. Because no one wants to end a day and fall asleep being held down by unnecessary melancholy. It never does the body…and spirit good.
True success is about satisfying your spirit with spirit things.
For instance, your ego looks at a cute, sexy person and says, “Yum, yum. I want that person.”
But your spirit is smarter. It looks at loving, joyous couples and thinks, “Mmmm. I want that joy, that happiness, that love.”
Update (6/6/07) - have taken down the lyrics ‘cuz…i just wanted to…if you wish, the links to the lyrics are here
It’s really been a month of reflection and inward searching for me. There’s always a never ending struggle with existential loneliness…a continuing battle with strife…But then…
I am grateful to have a sister who has given me the chance to cocreate a space where I can express myself without judgement. I am among a few who count themselves lucky to have been blessed with such a person…who serves as my rock. When I felt the need to be heard…understood…you are there. And I’m glad I can hang on to that…I never have to put too much forethought into what I need to say…and thank you for reminding me to be calm and centered. I am not good in expressing my thoughts vocally but I do choose to write…because every earnest particle in my heart easily flows through. I hope you get to read this. Thought I’d let you know…and even the world to know, that you are the greatest sister anyone could ever ever hope for. I know… I will try to let go of the bitterness that seems to anchor me down. It’s going to take heculean effort but I’ll honor what you teach me by keeping positive. I love you Nang.
Blessings be yours in peace, happiness and much laughter always…
Have been MIA for awhile, I know. Life…it seems…took over. I’m just here to take a 5-minute break.
I have no interesting news to say; everything but pleasant events occurred when I was away. The only time I got to leave my abode was when we attended Neil’s former boss’ wedding. Ever since I’ve become quite the recluse, I don’t fancy mingling anymore. But, it was Tony Durbin’s wedding…and I had to be there…to see the look on his face when he realizes his bachelor days are over. The poor man looked like he was dealt with a death sentence. He wasn’t smug…he looked….depressed even. Realizing he’s just an ATM from now till death is quite a bitter pill to swallow. Wait till he spawns mini-shoppers!
Anywhoo, I’ve been spending most of my blogging time right at LJ. Having quite the time of my life too. I belong to a growing community of House/Cameron shippers…and have bonded with Kate/Sawyer and Betty/Henry shippers too. Ain’t it sad that I derive some relief by reading and writing non-sensical drabble?
Just thought I’d let ya’ll lurkers know, I haven’t really been gone. I just haven’t been posting here. And with that I leave you with last week’s episode quotes, courtesy of Booth and Brennan of Fox’ “Bones”. I am absolutely loving their playful banter. BoothBrennan FTW!!!
from, “The Priest in the Churchyard”:
Booth: He’s an old-school priest, Bones.
Brennan: What? So I’m supposed to walk on egg shells because someone believes that a plot of earth has supernatural properties because somebody waved a wand over it?
Booth: There’s no wand. The church doesn’t use wands.
Brennan: Fine. Fine - magic water.
Booth: Magic … Holy water.
Brennan: The terminology makes it real?
